Wednesday, December 26, 2007


I've been listening to this great singer called: Vanessa Carlton, she's awesome. I know 2 songs for her! 'nolita fairytale' and 'a thousand miles'
Here's me dedicating this for you:

I thought of the live version because it explains what 'nolita' means! it's amazing!!! she plays the piano beautifully :P

also I've been watching 'heroes' it seems really interesting, I've watched 3 episodes so far, can't watch them now, I'm studying.. our mid-term exams are on the 5th of Jan. and we'll finish on the 13th of Jan. inshallah.
what a way to start the new year?!

and that's it from me, take care, and have a great closure with this year, I guess I won't write anything til the end of this year...
see ya, so long... til next year! ;)

Friday, November 30, 2007

Who's fault is that? the directors?

In this post I'm going to mention some of the directors stealing ideas!
this first video is for a singer called "Shatha" and the song is "layaly al shouq"

check the video, reminds you of something? no? Maid in Manhattan. that's a movie for J. Lo. It's the same!

the 2nd video is a song for a singer called: "Pascale Mashelani" the song is called: "2aribni menak"

there's some stealing from 'a walk to remember'

the 3rd one is a song called: ''3reeb el 7al' for a singer called: "7ekmat"

now you've got to check it! the song is 'irreplaceable' it's obvious.

The 4th video is a song called 'makanak' by Bushra.

Can you guess?
It's 'we belong together'!! :O you should check out the guy that is supposed to be Wentworth Miller! Be careful, you might get a huge SHOCK!

Thats what I could remember, check the videos, see how some Arabs think we don't know anything, so we won't notice~ silly them!

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

The latest music

I want to post something but I don't know what to talk about, so I'm just going to update you on what's new in music.
Brave 'thanks to the power of love I could love because I am brave' Jennifor Lopez love it!!!!
This boy's fire 'put me in water coz this boy's fire' Jennifer Lopez, Santana & Baby Bash

Now let me talk about the new Backstreet Boy's Album 'Unbreakable' it's so great!! love it!! it's amazing.
You should listen to:
-inconsolable, unsuspecting Sunday afternoon, unmistakable, downpour, something that I already know, panic, one in a million, ... and the rest of the album :D

enjoy, and if you have any recommendations, please do share them

why not get a little bit 'deep'?

Some people are naive and some people are the exact opposite. I consider myself in the middle!!
Those naive people are in somehow a danger, because they think all people good and they don't use their brain in real life, so they could be easily persuaded, so they should have someone to help them through their lives and tell them the truth that not all people are good! and to protect them from those who mean nothing but harm!
It's a shame to see those innocent people who love everyone, it's sad really.
In this life those people can't survive without being hurt because they put their faith and trust in the wrong people.
so please don't let those people continue to live like this and enlighten them, I'm talking like this for their interests!

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

I'm Back!

I know I haven't updated my blog, so here's a post, I'm dedicating some songs for you ;)
1. ba7ebak- Janat: It's a great song!

2.Suddenly - Ashley Tisdale, that's the only song I know for her and it's amazing!

3. Do it well - J. Lo feat. Ludacris

I didn't like the offical video clip, and I like the remix with Ludacris better

listen and enjoy! ;)

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Tips, what to say or what not to say

when you're talking to me online:

1. don't say 'hi, hello, hey' and then shut up! say how are you? after it.
2. don't let me just ask and you answer. ask too!
3. don't complement a lot.
4. don't call me "sweetie, honey, ..." I don't like being called with those names!
5. don't say you'll do something for me, and then don't! I'll keep reminding you.
6. if you're busy, just say so. don't leave me talking to you while you're wishing I'd just leave you alone! be honest.
7. don't say 'lol' to whatever I say,talk!
8. don't talk about school too much!
9. it's ok if you leave without saying goodbye!
10. share your experinces in life when you run out of topics to talk about!

that's all I could come up with..

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

I love All Girls. They ROCK!

I've talked about what I don't like about guys in previous posts, so here's a post dedicated for girls, enjoy!

I have received: "You look thinner! Young girls! and diets!" from many old women..
Well, I haven't lost a pound since the last time they saw me, and sometimes when we're eating with people, they tell us: "Oh, you didn't eat anything" and then addressing my mother or father: "Are they on a diet?"
WE ARE NOT! and we have eaten the amount that made us full, we eat as much as we want, and I don't like those comments!
They think we're like some of the girls who worry about what they eat and how many pounds they have putten on.
I know girls like that who say: "Oh, we just have been to some people who said that the Pepsi they served is diet, but I know it's not, from its taste", "We don't eat dinner", "I don't eat french fries", as the last comment was made when she saw me eating it, but I just kept eating.
And it's even worse when it comes from their mother, who gives comments to her daughters on what to eat and what not to eat, or she's telling her daughter not to eat too much because she has some weight to lose. and my sister actually said to that woman: "Actually aunt, she's not fat, and she's young so don't be so harsh on her"
Yes, she's got some courage!
And also I don't like those girls who want to do everything that you do, and have everything you have (as in like it, not taking it from you) and like everything you like or the jealous type.
And those 'Stuck-up' girls, who see something in themselves that no one else does.
And those who can't read the signals of 'not interested in the topic', 'go away', 'not the right time for this'.
And those 'Oh, I can speak English very well', 'I won this or I have that'
And those who have a crush on some guy, and they go telling it to the girls, and the way he acts and blah blah blah. and he turns out to be the worst guy ever.
And those who are too rude and don't know where to stop.
and I don't like, let me just say some names: "Natalie Portman", "Scarlet Johansan", "Anglina Jolie", "Nicole Kidman, "Elissa", "Hayfa Wahbe", "Nancy Ajram" and few others

so if I forgot a type of girls that I don't like then it's their lucky day.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Music updates

Here are some updates on the music I'm listening to, if you have any suggestions, please do share them.

"This love is so disfunctional, it leaves me so emotional" Can't let go - Linda Kiraly..
"you got a problem, come say it to my face" Impacto remix - Daddy Yankee Feat. Fergie
"I’m tugging at my hair I’m pulling at my clothes I’m trying to keep my cool I know it shows.. trying to be so perfect..." Things I'll never say - Avril -I've got to give the credit to Vic and Mia Rose, that's how I found out about this song, it's great!-
"so why does your pride make you run and hide?" Wait for you - Elliott Yamin
"It's the heart afraid of breaking, that never learns to dance. It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance. It's the one who won't be taken
who cannot seem to give. and the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live" The rose - Westlife
"Girl im in love with you, This ain't the honeymoon, Past the infatuation phase, Right in the thick of love. At times we get sick of love, seems that we argue everyday" ordinary people - John Legend
"If you've anything to tell me, It had better be tonight, Or somebody else may tell me And whisper the words just right" It had better be tonight - Michael Buble

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

My movie soundtrack

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc). Put it on shuffle & press play.
2. For every question, type the song that's playing. When you go to a new question, press the next button
3. Don't lie and try to pretend your cool... and alot of the songs fit with the setting

Opening Credits: Give it to me - Nelly Furtado & Justin Timberlake & Timbo
Waking Up: Keep your Hands off my girl - Good Charlotte
First Day At School: Real Love - Lee Ryan
Falling In Love: Hotel Clifornia - The Eagles
Fight Song: Where is your heart - Kelly Clarkson
Breaking Up: Crawling back to you - BSB
Prom: The Best damn thing - Avril
Life: Army of lovers - Lee Ryan
Mental Breakdown: The best day of my life - Jesse Mac.
Driving: We might as well be strangers - Keane
Flashback: goodbye my lover - James Blunt
Getting back together: Wonderful World - James Morrison
Wedding: Do you know - Enrique
Birth of Child: Tell me baby - Red Hot Chilli Pepers
Final Battle: Call me when you're sober - Evanscence
Death Scene: The one - BSB
Funeral Song: SOS - Jonas Brothers
End Credits: Stand up as people - Lee Ryan

Now let'sry it differently, this time just think of the songs that you
u would love to have it play during each scenes of your movie

Opening Credits: dreamer - Hil Duff
Waking Up: things I'll never say - Avril
First Day At School: vacation - simple plan
Falling In Love: A moment like this - Kelly Clarkson
Fight Song: shup up and drive - Rihanna
Breaking Up: Big girls don't lie - Fergie
Prom: promiscuous - Nelly Furtado
Life: Grace Kelly - Mika
Mental Breakdown: Bad Day - Daniel Powter
Driving: say anything - Good Charlotte
Flashback: Everything burns - Anastasia
Getting back together: it had better be tonight - Michael Buble
Wedding: the rose - westlife
Birth of Child: love is - BSB
Final Battle: what goes around comes around - Justin Timberlake
Death Scene: right back in the water - Jesse Mac
Funeral Song: from sarah with love - Sarah O'Conner
End Credits: Home - Michael Buble

Thanks Lucia for this post ;)

Thursday, September 13, 2007

updates from my life!

Me reporting to you from Nizwa school (I'm at the house now though:P) there's a new girl at our school, we just found out that she's Iraqi and so we went and had a little chit-chat with her, which we couldn't have a good conversation, she just knew that we were Iraqis too, we couldn't know her name, as to know who's her father!! and so we got some digging and we only got her first name! so that's a mystery to be solved, a reason to go to school!

Another thing, On Saturday, our Arabic, science teachers will come (they didn't come for 2-3 days, such glorious days!)
Also today is the 1st day of Ramadan (ramadan kareem to you all), really excited for it.
And our horrible English teacher, talks 'present' tense for the past and vise versa. "I said it one more time" which means "I'll read it again"
"Ball"= "Pool", and I'll stop talking about her!
*thinking of other stuff to tell*
ohh, and our life-skills teacher (life skills, its the 1st time I think what does maharat 7ayatya mean in arabic, life skills, its so weird, the phrase I mean) we had our 1st lesson on Wed. and she was trying to talk in formal Arabic and she said "a5eesh" I couldn't stop laughing.. and the girl next to me, kept making jokes and showing me her candy! I'll never sit beside her in a class again!
yea well, enough for now!
so long!

Saturday, August 25, 2007

Arabic Movies!!!

Let me talk about "Arabic" Movies!!
As the blockbuster of this summer was "Omar w Salma" and we all wanted to watch it! First we thought it was going to be GREAT! but as they continued advertising about it, we knew that the movie is going to suck big time! But still we needed to watch it!
And so we did, and from the first minutes of the movie we knew it's a disaster, still, we continued watching! It's about a player, Omar, who falls for a girl called Salma and she turns his world upside down, and he changed, he's no more a player! And Salma some how thinks he's cheating on her, -which he isn't, I told you he really changed!!- and then the girl who Salma thinks he cheated on her with -the other- her! -it's not so complicated, I'm just making it sound so:P-, so yes, she comes and explains to Salma that he wasn't cheating her, she just needed him help!
-that involved another guy fighting with Omar and Omar's shirt is torn apart, what a gentleman, I know! NOT-
And so they live happily ever after! There was one good thing about the movie! It's was really funny!! That's the only thing that is not just good but it's GREAT about Arabic movies! If you want to watch an Arabic movie, go see comedy! It's the BEST!
And we have a legend, his name is Addel Imam, He's a really famous actor! used to be so funny! But now I don't like him at all! His -horrible- movies: al tajroba al-almanya (or al daneemarkya!!), "3eemarab ya3qubean", "Morgan Ahmed Morgan". I didn't watch any of them, but I'm 100% sure that they suck!!!
Let's move to another kind of movies, "chick flicks", there's a director called: "Inas Al-dee'3eedy" and she says that in her movies she's just defending women!
Let me tell you how is she "defending" women. By movies like: "al ba7eethat 3n al 7oreeya",
She's just unbelievable, saying that they are just some daring ideas! And girls having sex with anyone that they meet! It's just sooooo sick! Now, a lot want her dead and hanged because of her movies, but that's just threatening, and every time she's preparing for a movie, critics criticize the movie before she even begins shooting, and so she puts a lot of inappropriate scenes more than expected, and she gets all the publicity that she wants through cirtics!
And another stupid movies 'asrar el banat' now I've watched it a long time ago, but I remember that it was about 3 girls, one who someone sents her pictures and letters and then she founds out that it was her step-dad, and one who's married, who thinks her husband is just plain and she wants him to be romantic, and I don't remember what the other one wants!
And there's a movie about 3 sisters, one who's dating an actor and she just got back from the UK and talks like she just been to the USA, and one who's boyish but she's in-love with someone she's teaching but she don't know how to act, and one who's in-love with a director and he directs her cook-show, and they all go to their psychologist neighbour, and he loves the one who dates the actor, and in the end she falls for him too and all the girls live happily ever after with the ones they love!
Another one, it's called "sahar el lyal' and that's really stupid! it's about 4 couples, and they cheat on each other with each other! Thank God, I didn't watch it, but I know what's it about!
And so many movies like that, I want to watch 'taymor w shafeeka' and 'a7lam el fata el 6a2esh', I think they're going to be funny!!
there's an actor who's in all of his movie, whether, super-crazy or super-wasted! movies like; karkar, el lamby, ..
OH! and another thing about Arabic movies, the songs that comes with them are FANTASTIC! that's also a GREAT thing!
I just love watching old plays, like 'madrast al mosha3eebeen' or 'el 3yal kebret' they're sooo funny!

Saturday, August 11, 2007


Chapter 1:
"stop eating" whispered an old women to her daughter who was sitting besides Lamyia, which was like a wake up call to her, because she was lost in her own world and that was no problem to be lost there but she reminded herself that her world could wait 'til she's alone. "You're daughter's weight is fine, you're just afraid she's going to be like you when she grows up, I just hate those who want others learn from their mistakes, what's the point of living?" she thought, while nodding at what that mother was saying about a stupid t.v show which the mother thought it was great. She was very grateful for not having such a mother.This was one of the families she didn't like because of how the mother controls what her daughters eat and other issues but this is the most important reason she doesn't like them.
She couldn't wait to get to her room because she couldn't stand being with those people for that long because she was afraid that what she was thinking might be stronger than her and without noticing she'd think out loud and embarrass herself, but she was relieved that she didn't do that.
She went to her room and turned her iPod on at the max. volume so she can have a good reason if she didn't listen to anyone calling for her. She was sitting on her bed with the thoughts of some lines from songs she was listening to as the "shuffle songs" was on choosing the songs for her randomly:"if loving you with all my heart's crime then I'm guilty" then "I would never wish you bad things but I don't wish you well" then "And burned the picture in a frame, but it couldn't save me" then "It's only small drops of pain, but even the rain can turn into rivers" and "Pay attention to me I don't talk for my health".
Her mother opened her door's room to check up on her and asked if she needed anything then she went and closed the door behind her.
Lamyia is out-going, too-honest, crazy and kind-of weird. Lamyia was tall and her body was in a good shape.
Fatma, lamyia's sister, came to lamyia's room in the evening and asked her if she wanted to go out with her. "Where?" Lamyia said."I don't know. Maybe to the movies" Fatma said. "or go out to dinner""nah, no good movies there, but going out to dinner might be fun, I'll ask Shaima to come with us"
"alright, I'll go get dressed"
Lamyia called her friend, Shaima, and asked her if she could go with her.
"No, I'm really sorry but I can't. I'm going to the movies with my mom." said Shaima.
"Oh, that's ok. maybe see you tomorrow" Lamyia asked.
"Yeah, why not? cya tomorrow Lumy" and Shaima hung up.
Lamyia got herself dressed and went out with Fatma.
During dinner, Fatma said, "you know, I'm going to France with my friends this summer"
"Really?? How come you didn't tell me before?" Lamyia said. "Is it a surprise? Am I going with you? Is that why you didn't tell me before?" and she was very excited.
"No, I'm sorry. That's not why. I've told you before about it, but you were so busy drawing something and I think you had your iPod on so all I got back then was 'really? good for you' "
"Ohh, when are you going anyways?" looking disappointed.
"After a week or so, but we're not going for a long time, just 2 weeks"
"good for all of you, enjoy!"

After couple of seconds, Lamyia saw one of the people who is on her list of "seriously get a life" which was a complete different from "get a life" list who were less hopeless than the others.
"Oh, there's Rami" Fatma said when she noticed him too.
"You mean: seriously get a life, get lost, move on and go away" Lamyia said "please don't come anywhere near me..." as he saw them and was on his way to them.
"Oh God, why do I have to go through this?" Lamyia said.
"Through what?" Rami said when he came.
"Hello" Fatma said "Good to see you here" trying to distract him because she knew her sister wouldn't keep her mouth shut.
"Through eating too much" Lamyia said. "hey Rami, How are you?" and Fatma looked relieved because Lamyia didn't finish what she really wanted to say.
"Ok, now you had your little chit-chat, walk away" Lamyia said, "Kidding. No seriously, your mom is calling you over there"
"My mom?" Rami said looking around. "I didn't come with my mom. I came with Ammar" looking very confused, but then he understood what she meant and smiled, " Ohhh, yes, my mom is calling me, I better go. Nice seeing you guys, Bye" and he left.
Fatma and Lamyia were both laughing and then Fatma said, "You know if you said anything more, you could have been rude."
"Yes, I know. A fine line between being rude and being funny." Lamyia said. "I have a talent not to go too far with me being so funny" Lamyia thought she should have stopped at the fine line between those two because the last joke was rather hopeless than "funny" which is why a joke is made.
Lamyia was her worst critic. She criticised every move, word, thing she did, so she let no place for anyone to criticise her.

Chapter 2:
Next morning, Lamyia woke up at 10 AM and ate breakfast and then her phone rang and it was Shaima. She picked up and went to her room.
"Say what???" cried Lamyia.
"Yes, I know." Shaima said. "Samar is coming to our school"
"I can't believe this, the people I like never come my way and I never get to see them" Lamyia said "But the people who are on every list I have always come my way, just yesterday I saw Rami"
"Be careful, he's my brother after all"
"Well, you don't choose your family, kidding. But I'm serious. My luck is so great at the moment"
"It's good that our school is just girls, so her brother doesn't come with her"
"I know, that 10 year-old kid is so annoying. He's so rude"
"He's actually 12, and I think you make a perfect match"
"Yeah, just my type. Younger than me, shorter than me, dumper than me and so good looking"
"I know, that's why I said so. Anyways you still didn't hear the bad news yet"
"Oh, I thought nothing was worse than these news"
"Well, Samar called me and asked if she can meet us"
"Ok, you mean the two of us?"
"But why is that so bad? surely you told her an excuse?"Shaima was silent."You didn't!!!! My God, and when we'll meet her?" Lamyia said.
"Today at 6 PM, my house"
She finished her call with Shaima and then went to her mom and told her that she's going to see Samar today and told her also about how much she doesn't like her.
"No, She's such a nice girl" her mother said. "I know you, you judge people before you meet them"
"But I've already met her and my opinion didn't change about her" Lamyia said.
"That's because you didn't give her a chance and because you didn't bother to get to know her"
Lamyia knew that her mom was right as usual but she couldn't help complaining.
Lamyia got dressed and went to Shaima and found that Samar was already there, and the girls had fun and Lamyia was ashamed of herself because she was wrong about Samar.
After 2 hours, they went out to walk and get Samar home and at their way, they met Samar's brother and when he saw them he said, "Oh, isn't that the girl with her lists of people she hates?" mocking Lamyia.
She was so shocked he knew about this but she got a grip of herself and said, "Don't worry, you can steal the idea and the copy-rights"
Samar was laughing and also she made her brother to say hi to them and be nice or she'll tell their mother about him breaking the Chinese vase.
"Samar, I can't go home with you, I just saw Khaled, so I'm going with him" Her brother, Saad, said.
Lamyia looked around because she didn't know who Khaled was, and then she saw that he was a guy she only knew him by looks.
"Nice to finally put a name to that person" Lamyia said. "Thanks Saad, because of you I'm going to update my lists"
"But you don't even know him!" Shaima said.
"That's the point, isn't it?" Lamyia said laughing.
"And why are you hanging with old people? You should be around people your age" Shaima said turning to Saad.
"Ok, I'll see you guys later" Saad said ignoring what Shaima said.
They kept walking and then Rami called Shaima and told her to come back home for dinner, and so everyone went home.
"Samar is another one to be added on the list of "mis-judged people", I can't help to judge people, but I'm not giving any excuses for what I'm doing..." Thought Lamyia!

Chapter 3:
After a few days, Fatma went to France with her friends and Lamyia was alone with her parents, she felt bored at first but then thought of doing something fun before school starts.
"So what did you think of doing?" asked Shaima when they were together in Lamyia's room.
"I dunno, How about learning a language or a music instrument?" asked lamyia.
"Khaled knows how to play guitar! We can ask him to give us some lessons."
"You're kidding, right?"
"Why not?"
"Oh ok, but it's still the middle-east. We're not living in the USA".
She didn't like to be taught be a guy she didn't know.
"I'm not saying date him!"
"No way I'm going to learn guitar from him"
"Ok, How about learning Spanish or French? I really want to learn Spanish"
"I want to learn French, how about we teach each other what we have learned?"
"But I thought we could have more fun together, but that's ok, I'm in"

After couple of days, they started their courses, and Lamyia was having great fun, and she thought that one of the reasons for that is that she wasn't spending time with Shaima as much, because she thought that Shaima has changed somehow.
One day after they both finished their lesson, Shaima said, "Can I go home with you?"
"Yeah, sure"
They walked to Lamyia's place and entered Lamyia's room.
"Can I use your phone?" Shaima said.
"Of course, there you go" Lamyia said and handed the phone to her friend and then while Shaima was dailing the number, Lamyia thought of leaving her finish her phone call, so she said, "I'm really hungry, I'll go and get some thing to eat"
After few minutes, Lamyia retured to Shaima and they started eating, then Shaima said, "Aren't you going to ask who I called?"
"No, but if you want to tell me, go ahead" Lamyia answered.
"No, that's ok if you don't want to know"
"Ok cool"Lamyia thought: that was weird, who was this person that Shaima called and thought not to tell her about it, something smelled fishy.

Lamyia began noticing that Shaima started using Lamyia's phone a lot even though she has her own phone! Lamyia asked her once who was this person she was calling and sending messages to? But Shamia said, "You said you don't want to know"
And when Shaima left, Lamyia thought that person's number must be somewhere in the phone, so she looked for it and then she found it and then she sent a message saying, "Hey, What's up? How are you?"And after some minutes she got, "Hey baby, I'm good. U? cya"
Lamyia didn't know what to think, it could be anyone, she thought. And she decided to ask Shaima who was this person.

Chapter 4:
Next day, right before their lesson started, Lamyia said, "Just tell me who is he?"
"Who's he?" Shaima asked.
Lamyia didn't say anything back and gave Shaima a look that said: "I asked first"
"You really want to know?"
Shaima hesitated before speaking and then said, "Khaled"
Lamyia looked at Shaima without saying a word, she was shocked but she didn't make any facial expression and she took her book and entered the class room.
"But the lesson didn't begin yet" Shaima said.
Lamyia was calm, she didn't think about Shaima any more, she focused on the lesson and had fun.
I should've expected this from her, she's no different from the other girls, and I won't this get in my way on having fun, I just don't get the point of talking like that to any guy, what's the point? get married? yeah, right! Lamyia thought.

Next day, she talked to Shaima like nothing happened, but in the inside, a lot changed.
She doesn't feel the same way about Shaima.
"Don't act like nothing happened" Shaima said.
"It's your life! I've got nothing to do with that. I'm you friend, and your love life doesn't concern me. Just don't use my phone again please."
"Ok" Shaima said disappointed.

On the same day, Fatma returned from France with a lot to tell her family and she showed that a lot of photos in France.
And at night, Fatma entered lamyia's room and talked to her about the cute guys there and Lamyia practiced some French with her sister and then Lamyia received a message on her phone saying, "I'm really sorry for all of the trouble I've got you through, Khaled".
Fatma read the message with Lamyia and said, "Who's he?"
"Never mind him, he's the stupidest guy on the planet"
"I thought that was Tom Cruise".
Lamyia laughed and then explained that he was Shaima's boyfriend but she made Fatma swear not to tell anyone.

Chapter 5:
School started and Lamyia hanged with Samar more than with Shaima, they had so much fun together and Lamyia had more friends, and she was elected the "Class President" although she isn't so smart but she manages to have full marks at most of the exams.
One day, they had a free lesson at school and so the girls made great noise, Lamyia tried to make them stop making that noise but then she gave up and joined some girls their discussion.
"So what are you talking about?" Lamyia asked.
"Boys" one girl said.
"Ok, then I'll find another girls to talk to" Lamyia said and then gave them a wink and walked away.
They all laughed and they were never upset with her almost-rudeness but they all agreed that she had a good heart and she meant no harm.
"So what are you talking about?" she said joining another group of girls and hoping that their topic wasn't as stupid as the latter.
"Hypocrisy" One of the girls said.
"I'll tell you this about the difference between hypocrisy and being nice: if you don't like some people and they like you, you can't tell them that you don't like them, so you have to like spend some time with them, so you're forced to do that, because of how many times you've made excuses to try avoiding being with them. But those people I can't stand; I wouldn't hesitate to avoid them every time they approach but it got me into trouble"
"So you don't think we should be straight forward to everyone" said a girl.
"Then you can't go on living! You're not living alone, you have to compromise, it's not about being straight forward, it's about being honest with yourself which is more important, just know who you like and who you don't like and then act the way that suits you" Lamyia bowed after giving her speech and then said, "What a shame, no cameras around! This, my friends, doesn't happen everyday"

The bell rang announcing the end of the school day, and so everyone was rushing towards the gate, and Lamyia and Samar were waiting to be picked up by their families, and so Samar's dad came and picked the two of them because lamyia's dad couldn't come to pick her up because he was going to be late at work.
During the drive, Samar's dad said, "How was your school day?"
"Great, nice teachers, no homeworks, not tired at all" Samar said in a sarcastic tone.
"Yeah, no complains" Lamyia said.
"I didn't like school much either"
"Didn't like school? We hate it, not a slight "liking" involved in our feelings to school"
Lamyia got home and ate lunch, then slept for 3 hours and then woke up and studied and finished her homeworks and went to the kitchen and found out that her father just got home.
She drank some water then went to the living room and saw that the news was on t.v so she sat on the couch and watched some news, then she got so frustrated because of the news, so she decided to finish a project that should be finished next week but she thought that was better than watching news.
As she was about to finish, she thought; that'll be enough, I'll finish it later.
Her phone rang and it was Shaima and so she picked up.
"Hey Lamyia, what's up?"
"Nothing, just finished my homeworks"
"Great. So I saw that Samar and you became good friends"
"Yeah, you know how I mis-judge people" Lamyia said hoping that this phone call wouldn't be so long.
"You know I stopped talking to him" Shaima said. "I'll never talk to him again, you know, before anyone finds out"
"Oh yeah?" Lamyia said. "Like it's my business"
"Of course it is. You're my friend" Shaima said in an angry tone.
"I guess you should have thought better than using me in something you know I don't approve of"
"Is that all because I used your phone?"
"You know well that it isn't just that, by doing that you gave him my number, do you trust him fully? Do you think he wouldn't call me when you're not there? And you used my phone without telling me what you were doing, because you knew damn well that I wouldn't second what you did or to be more correct do!" Lamyia said without giving Shaima a chance to talk. "Ok now, glad I said everything I wanted to say, I don't think you have anything left unsaid, do you?"
"No, I don't. Good night"

Chapter 6:
Lamyia thought she may have been rude with Shaima but she didn't regret what she said because it was exactly what she was feeling.
After a few days, it was weekend, and Lamyia's family went out for lunch and then went to the movies and had fun and then they wanted to go home but Fatma said that she wanted to walk a little and then she and Lamyia will get home.
And during their walk, Fatma said, "I might get engaged in a month or so"
Fatma nodded.
"Congratulations, prince charming is actually waiting, Hisho is over there"
"Oh, don't call him that, I'll be back in a sec."
"Don't tell me that you set this up!"
"Well, if I told you that you wouldn't come with me"
"You know, if you aren't getting engaged, I'd go home and leave you alone and never talk to you"
"Wow! Then Thank God I am"Fatma went to Hisham, and Lamyia stood there for a while and then saw Khaled heading her way, and she looked around to find someone to save her from talking to him alone because she knew he had something to say to her.
She thought she saw Rami somewhere, so she looked again and saw him and went straight to him.
"I'm invisible" Rami said.
"No, you're not" Lamyia said, "Hey how are you?"
"Was good about a minute ago"
"Shut up, it's just I saw that Khaled dude heading my way so I prefered to come to you than talk to him alone"
"How do you know that he's coming to talk to you?"
"I'm a psychic"
And seconds later Khaled came and said hi and said that he wanted to have a word with Lamyia alone.
"Why?" Rami said giving him a stare.
"None of your business"
"What if I don't want to talk to you" Lamyia said.
"Then, I'll talk" Khaled said, "Why did you tell Shaima that I called you? when all I did was sending you a message"
"Doesn't make any difference" Lamyia said shocked that he was talking about this in front of Shaima's little brother and then Rami said, "Ok you said what you wanted to say now get lost".
Lamyia gave Rami a strange look, then he said, "Yeah, this lil' kid knows! I'm not that dump"
"You said it yourself" Lamyia said. wow! he's just 14 and he talked to that jerk like that, but he knows?! She thought
"Ok now, it's your turn to get lost" Rami said simling, "YES, I said it before you do, you're losing your magic"
"Yeah, alright, thanks. Cya".
Lamyia found her sister waiting for her, and then told her what happened. "I always liked that kid" Fatma said.
"Damn, he's now on just 'get a life', I am losing my magic"

Thursday, July 19, 2007

when will I ever choose?

My sister has it all planned for our future, she says that she'll pay for our uni. expenses so she'll choose what we'll study, and we're always like: yeah right!so let me see my options and other options that might not be for me! as well!
An engineer: I don't think so, I don't like to be one!
A writer (as in going into English literature): I guess it was an option for me, I mean I like being a writer but I don't think I want to choose it as a career, and I'm not into English literature!
A lawyer: I don't think it's meant for me, I don't have that self-confindence to be one!
A pharmacist: I'm not into anything that is related with science!
A journalist: I enjoy to be the viewer of anything that has to do with media more!
A teacher: if you want me to hit kids and scream at them, but I can't say :"then I'll be one" because being a teacher would limit everything I do!!! I'm not saying that teaching is a horrible job, but that's what I think!
A doctor: NO FREAKING WAY! even if they'd kill me, I'd rather be dead than be a doctor!!!!!!Graphic design: what is this that all people seem to like now, and they're getting into it! I have no idea what it is, and I have no desire in becoming one!!
Politician: I like judging politicians without knowing what they do, and I'd like to keep it that way!

now you might think that I'm just eliminating all of my options! maybe that's what I'm doing, but I really want to get into something I like, so I don't know how it's going to turn out, maybe I'll find something that I like or I'll think about my options and try to fit something and come up with a decision even if it didn't happen anytime soon!so if I forgot any other majors that I might have forgotten, just tell me and I'll add them here!

Friday, July 13, 2007

Learning from people!! not going to happen!!!!! but maybe for you!

I officially don't like her!! period. and that's irrelevent to what I'm going to say but I just had to say it!

difference is what makes us live with each other! because it makes us complete each other! We'd be bored if we wore the same, liked the same things, did everything the same way!

I'm not saying being the exact opposites! but it's the things that some of us do and makes us know new things, interesting things!

it's the way we live life! now, I don't like meeting people who really really strange habits and like really weird things!

but meeting people from different backgrounds really makes you open-minded! and makes you think out-side of the box, even if it was for a little while only!

leaning about people's traditions is very interesting! and hearing from people about different issues makes you see any issue from more than just one point of view!

It always helps me -only global matters or general matters, because peronal ones, I don't listen to anyone but myself-

I mean, it's really hard to find an objective media or news because all we see is Iraqi channels, because we can't handle not to watch the news and not anyone of us doing something bad to the t.v, because other broadcasting channels call terrorists other names that don't sound like their doing something wrong!!!

so listening to different people's opinions makes you look at anything from a different point of view, even if it doesn't make you change your opinion!

Friday, June 22, 2007

Why Do U wanna Know?

one of the things that I'm glad that I suck at is being a 'suck-up', I can't flatter people neither do I want to.
and I hate it when I have to be with people I don't like. I watch my mouth so I don't say anything rude, but maybe something that they won't understand. :D
I tottaly love making inside jokes when Noor's around, great fun.
and again I'm talking about random things.
it's countigous!!
ok so I was talking to a girl and from the beginning I didn't like her (online of course) and then she said: "I want to ask you something personal if that's ok?" so I said: "ok"
I thought of the questions that she might ask but what she said wasn't what anything I thought it would be. she said: "are you a sunna or a shia'' and i was like: "Why would you want to know, I mean I'm a muslim and that's what matters" and she was like: "ok I got it" so I asked her the same question she did, so that should be no problem for her because she asked that question to me and she should answer herself. so she said -in Arabic she said all that so this is me translating:P-: "oh ok, I know what you are now.. and I'm the opposite of what you are" :O :O
so I was like: "how did you know what you knew? and what did you know?"
I wanted to know if she was right or wrong but she was right. but I didn't tell her that she's *write* or wrong -sorry, again I couldn't resist another chance to mock-
I mean what's this with Arab people just because I'm Iraqi then they want to know if *what kind of muslim I am*
it's sick I have to admit!!!! and people who ask that question should be ashamed of themselves!!
I have been asked a lot of times that question but we were taught not to answer, because we're muslims and if people knew that then no need for more details that won't make any difference, although now it may does to other people.
I actually had a fight with my friend over this, and I we talked about this a lot and then never got back to the topic again and agreed that we want to still be friends although now we're on a mission to find a life that doesn't include each other in it and see who wins, and it lasts for 2 weeks, 1 week left, you'll see the results on our blogs..
ok now that's enough.. too much infos as usual.. no worries..
*bye blogs* :P :P

Thursday, June 21, 2007

total randomness

"hey blog"
-couldn't resist this chance to mock-

Hating: lotion stuff.

Tamer 3ashour and 3mr Moustafa simply ROCK!!!

and this blog post is not for you to understand. don't worry it's just because you don't live with me. :P

Thursday, June 7, 2007

Mocking is my life

I love mocking.. It's sooo rocking :P

but hey I know when to stop :P

GOOD SONGS.. give them a listen

"what chu know bout me what chu what chu know?" Lip Gloss- Lil' mama
"Some sort of window to your right, As he goes left and you stay right" How to Save A Life- The Fray
"Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to the know the lock on the door has changed" Do You Know- Enrique Iglesias
"Still harder, getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret" What hurts the most- Rascal Flatts
"A few hours left 'til the sun's gonna rise, tomorrow will come and it's time to realize, our love is finished forever" Just One Last Dance- Sarah Conner
"I need your grace, to remind me to find my own" Chasing Cars- Snow Patrol
"Don't you worry about the distance I'm right there if you get lonely Give this song another listen, Close your eyes Listen to my voice it's my disguise.. I'm by your side" Hey There Delilah- Plain White T's
"Told you I'll be here forever That I'll always be your friend, Took an oath Imma stick it out 'till the end" Umbrella- Rihanna Feat. Jay-Z
"And all I need is you, Come please I'm calling. And oh, I scream for you..Hurry I'm falling, I'm falling, I'm falling" Saving Me- Nickelback

so many songs I have just found about, they're sooooooo good.. Thanks Ash for 'Saving me'.. and Thanks Medha for mentioning 'Do You Know'.. Thanks Zach and Jenny for 'How to Save A life' and 'Chasing Cars'
PLEASE people, if you have any songs you like and want me to listen to them, tell me about them and I'll listen to them.. :D
there's nothing like listening to good music :)

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

A victim of circumstances or a victim of apathy???*

It is perhaps every teenagers dream to holiday in bali and shop in dubai. It is perhaps every software engineer's routine to party in places where a glass of vodka costs more than three meals for an entire family. It is perhaps every 17 year old boy's hobby to go to a shopping mall, look at beautifull women and thank God for making life so much more worthwhile. It is perhaps quite okay for a father to buy his son a Mitsubushi Pajero for passing 10th grade, while on the other hand money is being saved by cutting down on the salary of the housemaid. But while we are engrossed in our most serious ventures, we should perhaps step out of our own shoes and see those things that we ought to see, to hear those things that we ought to hear, to stay silent and think about what we really have to speak about.
I am writing here fully aware of the cruel ironies and sorrowfull contradictions in the world today. We live in a society that plays on a see saw not caring enough to see if the person on the other end is heavy enough to balance the apparatus. We live in a not so condusive atomosphere where luxuries are no longer enough but instead an ambition to go beyond is visible. Yet on the other lie people who are troubled by the voice within, who cry and scream on the inside watching a poor soul's hope lies on the edge of a cliff and yet cant do anything to help.
Death represents to most of us that evil force that will take us away from everything and everyone we love and cherish while for her it is perhaps a source of liberation, freedom from responsibilities that burden her back and strike her down, end of a punishment called life
While we fight our battles against boredom, against mediocrity and against simplicity as opposed to vulgar extravagance, she fights a battle for food and shelter she fights a drunken husband and for good education which her children rightly deserve. While a kitchen knife to us, represents all those times we have hurt ourselves trying to chop vegetables, it reminds her of the day she came to her employers home shocked and not knowing where to go with the knife thrust into her back, by the very person who was supposed to love and protect her.
While a good convent school represents to us affordable means of good education and money worth spending on, for her it represents an agent of financial burden and yet at the same time the right place for her brilliant daughter. It represents a situation where it is less food today and more money tomorrow or enough food today and a hopeless future tomorrow.It is true that she and I are from different sides of society. Yet her greatness and resilience is beyond anything I have ever seen.
I stand here with the hope that her honesty is not rewarded with misery and sorrow; that her sincerity is not returned with starvation; that her nobility and integrity doesnt bring a drunken mad man whose only motivation is alchohol.
Yet I also realise that hope isnt enough and neither is Rs.4000/- as fees for 10th grade. Gratitude has lost is meaning and concern signifies guilt and frustration. I stand here at the face of a society that is over eating and obese and yet refuses to share, at a government that continuously fights over our language and yet doesnt listen to the people who speak that language.
I am also aware that words are not enough. Heck they may even discredit me as the person who only speaks and doesnt actually do anything. Yet it is with the hope that someone will listen and someone will listen good that I am here. I am here not telling a story about a individual but about a host of maids in Bangalore who fight drunken husbands, increasing costs of education and narrow minded employers and the apathy of society. This is the story of a housemaid whose drunken husband is absconding at the time of paying fees for the daughter’s term at school. This is the story of the housemaid whose drunker husband has drained her of all the money she needs for a cataract operation. This is the story of those millions of people who clean the houses of people they don’t know, ensure the family’s good health by tidying up the place and are yet ill treated as outcastes and cheap labour.
I stand here lost in a different way thinking and pondering and still not able to understand anything. I would prefer my intellect to stay idle than to live with the frustration that I wasnt able to figure out another way, my eyes would rather prefer to be blind than see a soul lose its hope near the cliff and still not be able to do anything, my ears would prefer to be deaf than listen to the cries of those who need help and still feel helpless, my mouth would rather prefer to be dumb than say things and not be able to do anything promised. Justice and equity seem more like concepts on paper than operative words in today's world. They say that God is like a lawyer, i.e both are approached only when people can’t think of a way out and I would say I am also such a stereotype.
To all those teenagers who own pajeros for passing 10th grade, who party at “The Capitol” spending more on booze than people could afford on proper food, I would like to say that a world exists parallel to ours and it is suffocating and it cries for help. It struggles to keep its residents alive and begs for someone to intervene. If you are a person to whom things beyond luxuries are a necessity, for whom comforts are more of a right than a privilege and for whom drugs and cigarettes are worth buying, then it is only fair that I wish you the best of luck.
But as V puts it in his speech in V for Vendetta, if you see what I see, if you feel as I feel and if you seek as I seek, then please post this article on your blogs and spread this to every blogger you know for more the speakers, more will be listeners.

*This is written by Ash:

Friday, May 11, 2007

Our Friends

one of the privileges of being twins, is that we get to have the same friends and not only offline friends, here's something for our online friends:

Laura: She's such a sweet girl, very caring... and she wants to change this world for the better.. and we're proud that she's a friend of ours... we hope you find what you want in this life.
Evil_slayer -Boody-: a great person.. very funny.. and he's one of those people who will change this world starting from his country.. keep it up;)
Saudamini: She's such a 'sweetie' and she's our source of Indian music.. always great fun talking to her.. all the best..
Ash: one of us is going to kill him and the other one, he's relying on to save him.. a great friend.. we're lucky to know him..
Bhishma: He's very cool and doesn't know who's who.. he just says:'you sure you're Huda or Noor?' out of nowhere in the conversation.. and we love talking to him..
Zach -our boss-: can't ask for a better boss... so much fun talking to him.. we'll rock the world together.. you're an inspiration to all of us.. and you're dedication motivates us..
Rohit: can't believe how much he knows.. we're both huge fans.. keep rocking..
Medha: We have fun every time we talk to her.. we love you and just know we're there..
Waed: a great great friend.. she's such a cool nerd.. waiting to see her again.. all the best
Rux: she's so much fun.. and soo sweet.. always ready to give you an advice.. luv ya
Anu -AA-: one of the brightest people alive.. we love replying to her posts and learning about India from her.. she's a true compulsive thinker.. we're waiting for her to be our tour guide in India..
Fathi: instead of asking us 'how are you' he says: 'had your lunch? and what did you have' he'll know how we are from those questions.. he's an awesome friend.. you're invited anytime to come and have lunch with us and taste mom's cooking.. have fun at the gym:P
Amy: can't ask for a cooler friend.. and she's so talkative.. love talking to you..
Sharu & Aska: they're very cool ... can't wish you anything but the very best..
PS: we wrote this in a jumble order.. :D

This is posted by N&H

Wednesday, May 2, 2007

random updates

I have this habit when I'm angry, I walk like I'm going to fight with someone.. It's freaky, even if the reason that I'm mad about is silly... but that walk is scary for other people but I like it..
and I also have this weird/scary stare at the person I'm mad at.. people can say sorry even if they didn't do anything.. but just getting face to face with them and giving them that look just lets my anger out..
and now there's this new habit when someone comes or I'm saying hi to someone or I just see someone I know, I raise my eyebrows with my face and it's like hi if I don't want to say hi to someone, so with that little nod, I get myself out of this hi/hello/how are you/how are things with you??
and I let them know that I saw them..
and there are also some friends that I'm annoying them, one about her yellow shoes and the other one about her weird laugh and one about her flat face -always make fun of it when she's not around- and one about her family-size lips...
and also having those fun fights with my friend's brother who's totally scared of me..
and without forgetting the new update to the mock-at-people list: Miss India who's beautifull :P
and that was my random updates on my habits and what's cracking down!!
but one thing before I click 'publish' I have to say something to someone:
'You just get a grip and chill out and bala zana5a... and get a life'
I feel sooooo much better now...

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Medical school?

I don't know why here in the middle east, they have a thing for med. school.. a big thing actually.
And all must get into med. school, whether it's what they really want or if they're smart enough or they have what it takes for med. school..
I have been shocked by a friend of mine when I saw their application for grade-12 that had: the major you want to get into for university and the answer was: medical school... and I was soooo shocked that she wanted to get into med. school. I know her for almost 2 years and I know that she doesn't have what it takes to med. school.. and I know that it came from that obsession Arabs -I don't know if others have that thing for med. school also- have about med. school, they think that being a doctor is incomparable to any other job and one has respect by just being a doctor.. -no offence to any doc.-
People should go after what they want and what they are good at, because they're going to be -whatever they choose to be- a doctor/an engineer/ an artist/ etc. etc. etc. their whole life, unless they changed it in somehow. so they should consider their options and think about what they really want not what people want them to be and if you're honest about anything then you'll prove yourself wherever you are and whatever you do.. and that is exactly what I'm going to do when I choose what I want to get into at university.
and that made me think, seeing that application of my friend, there are other majors other than getting into med. school and one must follow what they're good at and what they like, and that also made me think of the poor people she's going to treat or how she will feel if she didn't make it and survive because one must have some specific qualities to get into med. school -I'm sure a lot will nod reading this-
but I didn't even bother to talk to her about it or tell her what I think because it's her life and her future and I just asked: 'you want to get into med. school?' and she said: 'yes' and that was it with her....
Now, I haven't decided what I want to get into at uni. or what do I want to be in the future but I have a clear idea of what I don't want to get into and that is medical school, I think med. school isn't for people like me and it's not something that I want to become which is being a doctor...
if you want to get into med. school then I have nothing to do with it, you're so free in getting into what you want and if you have what it takes for it then you totally got my respect because maybe you someday will treat me or maybe not..

Thursday, April 12, 2007

bug off!!!!!

I don't like telling everything that happens to me to everyone.. not that I am mysterious, neither do I claim to be and I don't not want to be one!!!
I don't care and that's a fact but this is not what I'm going to talk about.. I have talked about me when it comes to this but let me talk about people when it comes to that issue..
let me start by talking about some things about me and then how people react or act in general..
it's true that I don't like to talk much but that is only at few places or times.. I can be soooo talkative and I can be really quite..
but I don't like to spread things about me everywhere only to the people that care about me but that is kind of impossible having someone around that their mouth can't shut up and if they finished talking about what happened to them then they'll start talking what happened to me... *no offence*
Now, it's their -should I stop saying 'them, they, their?- nature and this is not what I wanted to talk about but no harm in mentioning it.
I don't know why people want to know everything about everyone.. -that is not all people but a lot of them- and some of them, you don't know them well... so it's irritating when they ask about what happened... and you can't just tell them I don't want to say.. although we have tried: it's not going to do you no good if you found out or it's none of your business or why do you want to know,, etc.
Some are just too curious and I can't understand why they are so.. sometimes when they ask me something I just remain silent and sometimes they give up and after some minutes I answer with a tone that is like whatever...
just mind your own business and leave me alone!!!!

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

letting it out

This is not a comfortable place right now. It may be my enemy.. I no longer type these words easily as I did before. but did I really wrote blogs easily in the past?
I'm talking like I have been writing in here since ages... I'm talking like I know what I'm talking about.
this blog may be my enemy?? What a line!!!! It's non-sense. and it sounded like it's coming out from a crazy person whom doesn't know anything at this moment.
I have learned or promised myself that I wouldn't write in here when I'm down or mad or feeling blue, so regrets won't take place in me. I have enough regrets in this life.
So why I'm breaking my promise this time -it is obvious that I'm feeling blue- ??
well, I'm not going to write about why I'm feeling blue? neither am I going to write about what's bothering me or what happened?
It's just a wish to type 'I'm not feeling good at this moment' and tell the truth for the first time in this day.
When people ask how are you? I would say: not bad, good, I'm the same, ...
I don't say I'm great or I'm sad, feeling blue.
It's just no use of saying that to other people, they already have tonnes of problems and you need not worry them about matters that will go away.
So still why am I saying all of this if I don't want to upset anyone? I'm not going to upset anyone because after saying this I'll feel better. so you don't need to worry about me.
I'm doing much better now... as I'm writing this now.
Now I'm done with this for now, I let it out and I'm good....
thanks for listening -or should I say reading-

Thursday, March 8, 2007

(not) my love life to come

My real love fairy tale that's going to happen to me. -that I believe it's going to happen to me-
After a lot of years waiting and dreaming about my perfect man for me....
He'll come and my perfect man will be him, I'll fit him in that category.
I'll love him truly and he'll know my deep love for him, then I don't know what will happen, whether he'll love me back or not. But that's not important because he'll know that I love him.
I may differ with people when they tell me that you'll love someone and you'll hurt a lot, and you'll love the wrong person. But here, he can't be the wrong person, because he's going to be perfect for me.
and after sometime, he'll love me or he won't, it's never going to be the problem.
but you may ask why? and you have every right to ask, why I'm not making it a big deal for someone I love, that he doesn't love me?
So why? I'm going to make the confused look go away, but I won't promise that your next look will be good. I'm sorry that I won't put a smile on your face, but it's reality.
I'm being like the someone wants to tell you something and keeps saying reasons and facts and excuses before telling you what it is.
please don't hate me but I'm not making you wait for the happy news or the good news...
ok, it's time to tell you what will happen with me....
if he loves me or not won't matter, because even if he did, something will come up in our way, and will destroy our plans that we made together if we made ones.
It may be our families, money, traditions, maybe even religion. Who knows? but something will make all of our plans, but that's if he loved me. Because if he didn't then we won't have plans.
and in both ways, this following will happen...
A guy will come and I'll marry him, he won't be very charming, neither he will be what I have dreamt of years back, because whom I have dreamt of went away for reasons I have mentioned earlier.
and I will live my life and try to be happy.
Now, I'm not saying that this will happen to me, -God,NO- but I like the thought of this, not like but I enjoy thinking like this.... It sounds like a drama soap.....
I know God have better plans for me.... but those aren't my plans for myself because such plans cannot be planned for, they just happen and I hope that this won't happen to me...

Tuesday, March 6, 2007

an unofficial 15

I'm not 15 yet, although it's a matter of days and I'll be 15. so now if I kept saying now: I'm 14. and then at 17/3 I'll say: I'm 15. amazing how only few days can be counted as a year. but I believe that it's not those few days who turned me into 15. it's by the things that made me 15. from now I'm saying that I'm 15 because I feel like it. although I have Noor saying: We're 14, stop saying we're 15. But I believe that I am 15, that age which I'm no longer considered a kiddo or considered at my early teenage life. I'm a true teenager now -or I like to think that I am-.
I hope I'm making sense or at least I'm going to make sense. I hope I'm not like the song that I was listening to, but the problem wasn't with the song, it was with the program, so it was like: In My, my my my dream, there's there's only you you you no...." and I gave up hope on it and closed it, so a true prayer that this isn't like the song I listened to.
I already feel I'm 15, talk, walk, eat, sleep, do everything like someone who's been in this life for 15 years.
15 is like any year you become, but it's different in what you want to do, learn in this year. How am I going to be 15 or acting like one? nothing new or different, it's the way you see the world and the way you react which is the only different thing that changes from one year to another.
It is I who is going to decide all those things, it's I who will be living as a 15 years old girl who have been through more than she should go through but still she'll living and she has some respect left for this life. That some respect may go away through these years that are left for me to live.
I'm not being pessimist but it's the truth and nothing but the truth.
In this new chapter of my life which isn't a chapter because being in the same place, doing the same things, make me in the same chapter I was in, so I shouldn't say a new 'chapter' but it is a new 'way' of seeing things.
I'm muture, I should keep reminding myself that I am at some extent, muture, but I seem to forget that fact and then a lot of nasty things follow...
'Life still unseen' not true. 'Life still uncovered' half true. No life will be complete, we'll all try to do so, even though we all know we're not going to complete it but it's if you try or not that counts not if you achieve what you've tried to do.
So I'm at the door waiting for 15 to arrive, although I feel like it's already here. But it might only take few days until it arrives and I can say: I'm 15. and I mean it more than I do now.
'An end is a start for a new beggining'.... so long 14 and hello 15...

Friday, March 2, 2007


If you have lived around me for a time, you'd know that I have this habit of blaming everyone around me, even though sometimes it can be my fault but I blame anyone for anything.
so here I have some people to blame. They are all the people who live with me and around me and all the people I know and I blame all the things that are around me.
so now I blamed who I need to blame but still I haven't said what I blame them for:
Inspiration, it left me without coming back to me. So you must think that I should blame 'Inspiration' for it but let me explain:
I'm inspired by things that don't happen, I'm inspired by people I haven't met, by books I haven't read, by words that haven't been said.
So therefore I need people to keep quite, I need my life to be empty for a while so I can have that inspiration.
People, don't come to me anymore, don't talk with me, don't and don't.
Words, don't enter my head, don't let me say you, don't and don't.
Books, don't let me read you, don't let me understand you, don't and don't.
You, don't comment on this.
It is not me who lead people, I may have said things that might sound controlling, but life taught me to be led more than to lead. So I just took that chance to blame and boss things/people around.
I have enjoyed it and there you go, I'm done.

Saturday, February 24, 2007

a cool school day

believe it or not, it was fun. We had fun. or more likely I did have a lot of fun.
I woke up with a good mood and if you know me then you would know that what I feel when I wake up reflects the way I spend my day. although I had a nightmare. I dreamt that I was out in the dawn walking on the high way. and there were people in a car with a yellow face man -don't ask- and then when I walked near them , the car started moving and I was running fast. and that was my nightmare and that nightmare didn't affect my mood -thank God- and so I was happy the whole day and making silly comments every where and actualy laughing at them -only me.
At school there was a celebration on the teacher's day -although I don't think it's today, but who cares?- so they were giving prizes to the teachers but the bad part is that we stood in the front so everything we did was noticable -meaning: no comments on the teachers we don't like- but though we clapped for the teachers we like and the ones that I didn't even know I clapped and said: who?
and my favourite teacher -who taught us two years ago- wasn't there and when they said her name, I wanted to scream and cheer for her, but I don't love her that much it's ok.
when the celebration took place, Noor noticed that all maths teachers wore the same thing, it was funny and cool, and very weird. Finally teachers in uniform.
and we didn't take our 1st period!
Then at our seventh period, we had maths and we were bored and we didn't want to be taught anything so we wanted to destract the teacher from our lesson and we tried in every way but we had our lesson and she gave us some questions to answer but some girls didn't know the answer so she siad:'how come you still don't know how to answer this, we took more than 70 practise questions on this' and because I was so bored I started counting and then Noor told me:stop. and I looked up and so some girls staring and laughing with me and one of them said: the teacher is mistaken with the number.
then we had our 2nd break and when we got back to our class we started talking about Saddam and I got so mad -in a good way, for me. I'm sure not for them- they like him and I have no idea why. He didn't do anything for them but they like him and they think he died in the name of islam and I had fun talking about this because I'm right and I know it, so I got my anger out in a healthy way -I think- and actualy convinced some girls that he's not GOOD.
so this my friends was my cool school day.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

stop asking those questions

Do you feel each other when you're not together? No
if one of you is sick will the other get sick too and feel each other's pain? well, because we're always together so we contage each other.
Who was born first? we don't know -the nurse who was supposed to number us forgot the little not important thing so it's all her fault-
Do you think about the same things? not necessarily
How is like having a twin sister? it's kinda cool but not so much! you have no privacy, you have no secrets, you cannot do stupid things and not be caught
I always wanted to have a twin sister? I'm sure you don't.
oh, is it that bad? not so much but it's not glamours. You get noticed everywhere. which is a bad thing.
Do you fight a lot? yes -but it's non of your business-
What will happen if you wanted to get married? we won't marry twin brothers!!!!!!!!
Who is smarter? both -but the truth is it's Noor-
You won't believe these facts about us:
we dream sometimes about the same people.
we say the same things always.
we are totally different.
oh really? -in not believing much in what we just said, like we care-
Does your family know who's Huda from Noor? -What a stupid question but we get that a lot- of course they do! almost 15 years with us.
How can you tell the difference? -we get that from the people who just met us- well, Huda's taller, Noor's thinner, Huda got a scar on her chin,..... -then we just say what the heck? they won't know who's Huda and who's Noor the next day-
Ever fooled people that you're Noor or her as in you? well, when we went to Iraq, we were at our aunt's house and people were coming to see us and mom was out, so we had to go and say hi and I didn't want to go, so Noor went to them twice -we were dressed in the same outfit- so they thought that they saw both of us and my aunt actually didn't find out until we told her -we didn't do that a lot, just few times-

guys, can't live with them! period.

It is globally known that I don't like guys at all! In fact, I don't stand them. There maybe various reasons for that, maybe all the guys I know are jerks, or maybe a guy did something to me and so I had that against all guys! I don't know. Because all of the reasons I mentioned don't apply on me! The reason doesn't matter now!
Guys seem to want me to keep that attitude against them because time after time I see guys doing horrible things, like yesterday a guy I kinda knew was with his 7-8 year old brother who just came back from school and he was hitting a girl who was older than him and his older brother was on a bike and he supported his brother and with his bike almost ran over that girl and she fighting back but against two boys, she had no chance, so as we watched that we knew we had to do something, so we went there and told her to walk away and leave them! I must say that this isn't what I wanted to do, I wanted to go after him and scream at him and .... and ..... but I was going home from school although I was so in the mood for it but I didn't want to make a scene so we got that girl and then walked home!
now that kinda guy who was supporting his young brother in doing so, what will that little kid be in the future? a horrible thought! I wish not to think of it because it's a chain and I don't want to give up that little hope on the guys left on this earth.
and just saying anything about a guy, he'll just assume that you like him or something like that even if what you said: you suck! but he'll say: oh I know you think about me all the time!
funny how that ego of some guys can be so wrong but they still keep it and use it everywhere like we have nothing to do except thinking about them!
I know that there can be good guys out there in this earth but I'm not going to apologise for what I have said and I'm not generalizing this on all guys but I'm sorry to say is that I don't like guys, and I'm sure a lot of guys while reading this will be devastated by this but this is the truth! I'm not sorry!

Friday, February 16, 2007

a funny day

I had something against eating out! I wasn't comfortable eating in front of strangers. My friends and my sister tried to convince me that it's ok! and I didn't care about what others thought of me but I don't know why I wasn't comfortable eating out! I used to eat with a tissue covering my whole mouth and tried to eat slowly and if someone was staring or just looking at me then I would stop eating for a moment! but then I don't care anymore how I eat when I'm out, so I it's ok eating out now! and the other day I was eating and there was someone staring -not at me I'm sure- at the sandwich I was eating, so I got a little uncomfortable and wished if he would find something else to stare at and leave me enjoy my sandwich, then finally he grabbed his mobile and stopped staring and I got back to my sandwich but I wondered what have I done to make someone stare at me, I wasn't doing anything crazy. But there was this women who was screaming -not screaming but talking VERY LOUD- so I couldn't help but to stare at her and left everything else but then her husband noticed that I was staring so I stopped staring, so maybe this is why someone stared at me because I stared -for a long time- at someone else.
and I must mention that before I got my order I pointed at my sister and someone else thought I was pointing at him but then somehow -thank God- he got that I was pointing at the one behind him. and my other sister some time later pointed at me and I got up and went there but someone was with us and thought she was pointing at her so she also went and that time was full of mistakes! -I'll spare you-
and at the way home we all were going through some situation but Noor seemed to have it more than anyone of us! and I kept laughing and laughing and couldn't stop and my dad was making it more hard to stop laughing by making funny comments and Noor kept saying: please stop laughing. and then she would laugh with me. After every 5 minutes I'd remember it and laugh and when we arrived I couldn't help but to laugh loud and Noor.........
I can't mention the situation we had because it would be really improper.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

stupid lines from songs

Although I don’t correct things and if there was a mistake somewhere I wouldn’t correct it. But if something was wrong, I’d say it out loud even if though I may not say it to the person who did that thing.
So here are some of the things that I consider really wrong in some of the songs:
1- ‘I was born to make you happy’ a song by Britney Spears and by that name I can tell you what’s wrong –and I have listened to the song–.
You were born to make someone happy? How silly is that? You’re purpose in life is to make that person you love happy? And you weren’t born to make a difference in someone’s life or you weren’t born to just live your life and enjoy it. I know that may sound selfish but it’s not, you weren’t born for someone else.
I have always wondered why I’m here in life and I was still wondering but now I found the whole reason of me being on this planet which is to make ‘you’ happy.

2- ‘Goodbye my lover’ a song by James Blunt.
And this time it’s not the name, it’s the part where he says: ‘shared your dreams, shared your bed’! how can someone share your dreams! Aren’t we all supposed to have our own dreams and ‘everyone share their dreams’? well, maybe you can do that! But I don’t know how! And ‘shared your bed’ I’m sorry to say this but it’s just sick! I know it’s a song but first of all: there’s no point of saying that. Second of all: the line is so stupid. Third of all: we are so better off not knowing that!

3- ‘ahla haga fiki’ a song by Mohammed Hamakey.
The part I don’t like is: ‘inshallah amot fi howaky inshallah’ (meaning: inshallah I’ll die in your love) do you really want to die in someone’s love? You know this is also just a song but death isn’t that easy! You can’t just wish that you’ll die in someone’s love! Actually the song isn’t that he’s wishing to die but it’s that if he dies, he wants to die in her love. But still it’s stupid. And to us Muslims, you can’t just say that! And I’m sure he doesn’t really want that! Cause if someone asked him about that he’ll immediately say: ‘No, of course not. It’s just a song. And of course I want to die surrounded by the people I love…… but you know, death is a very sad subject to talk about. Let’s change the subject’ or something like that.
So how can you sing a song that you don’t mean anything in it?

4- ‘If everyone cared’ a song by Nickelback.
It’s ‘if everyone shared and swallowed their pride’ I don’t get it. If someone is humiliated, so he/she should just move on and suck it up and continue like nothing happened! Of course not, they should stand up for themselves because no one has any right to humiliate anyone and by moving on and saying nothing when someone humiliates you, you’d be giving them all the right to humiliate you!
And pride is one of the things that are so important to me in life –I’m sure to others too– so I won’t swallow my pride! NEVER!

Now I’m sure there’s a lot of stupid songs in this world! But I’m mentioning those lines because all the songs that I mentioned aren’t supposed to be stupid!

Friday, February 9, 2007

Little kids

A small girl was staring at something and she was standing close to me and I was with a friend and my sister. And they knew how I feel about little kids so they knew I was going to freak her out. They tried to talk me out of it but they let me and wanted to know what I was going to do. I looked at the little girl and caught her intention. I said to her: 'come here' with a smile and I expected the same reaction from her as all little kids have but she surprised me and she laughed and nodded with her head and turned the other way and left. I was shocked, I thought she'd have the confused look on her face and leave right away. but she didn't have that. she mocked me. and she's about 4-5 years old but she did a very smart thing to me and I was impressed.

I guess now not all little kids can be fooled. They are few genius ones that you know they'll be something in the future. This little girl will be a great person I'm sure. I have never laughed when someone mocked me neither did I ever enjoyed someone mocking me. But she was wicked.

I remember once at school, I saw group of 10-11 years old girls sitting together, so I went to them and I asked them questions: what's your name? In which class are you? and so on. They were looking at each other and they were giggling and my class mates saw me and they were watching from upstairs and laughing and making comments, then I had enough with those little girls so I said good-bye and returned to my class.

in every time when I'm around little children can't help but keep wondering: will life make them go through the hard way? the way that we all walked through and we're still walking, wondering what life has in stores for us.

and will life give them its pleasures, or will it just keep them in misery?
sometimes I want to warn them about life and that you can never expect the things that are hidden for you, but I don't think that they will understand and I don't think that they deserve to be warned, they just need to worry about nothing and live their simple short life until that simplicity goes away and then life changes its way with them.

although I cannot stand little kids but their innocence gets into me every time and they're absolutely irresponsible about everything that is going in their lives.

Thursday, February 8, 2007

just a minute

Iraqi people came over and at first I wasn't too happy about it and then they came and actually it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. mom and two other ladies talked together and my sisters and two other girls also talked together. and I was the listener of the old ladies talk. They talked about the situation in Iraq and how it was in the old days and then I found myself wishing for a minute in Iraq, just to breathe that air again and just get the feeling of being at home again! I was sure that a minute won't do but I was just asking for a minute. I wouldn't be like one of those addictive people who say when they want to quit something: ''just a little bit to get me through this''. No, a minute would be enough. I just want to know how it's like to be home.and then, I got to reality and those old ladies kept talking and they reached the ugly part of their conversation which is the situation of Iraq now. I wanted to go away. I didn't want to hear anymore. I just wanted to dream about that one minute in my home.But I couldn't get away and I also couldn't talk with the girls because they were away and two things were left to do: whether I'd listen to them or I'd watch that silly show that I don't even know the name of it. so I chose to listen to them. and they kept talking and talking and then they started telling stories about how cruel the situation was. and here is a story that a lady told us:A family had a very good guy and he was doing his PG. and so one of the gangs in there kidnapped him and told his family that they want 5000 dollar. They usually ask for more but I don't why it was just 5000 but still it's a big number for Iraqi families who -God knows- if someone was working in this family. and then they somehow gathered that money and then the gang -or should I say terrorists- called them back and told them if they don't pay then they'll find their son in the rubbish behind their town. So they went at the place that the gang chose and gave them money but they -of course- didn't give them their son back. They threw it at a rubbish after they beated him and a poor man who was searching to find if there was anything in that rubbish, so he found that guy and he was still breathing. So he took him to the hospital and they treated him but meanwhile his family gave up and they believed that he was dead.So after he recovered he called his family and they got him. but the tricky part is that he knew who kidnapped him, it was their neighbours because two men took him and they didn't hide their faces. So that family directly moved from their house and that guy went to Saudi Arabia.So then I didn't know what I felt anymore. I truly believed that the situation cannot be worse than this but I'm still holding on that wish. Just a minute anywhere in Iraq.I just want to feel for a minute that I'm where I belong and I'm free. and I want to feel like I'm safe there even though I cannot feel that with all what's going on there. but what I mean is being safe as in this is my place I have every right to be here.